sista queen go hard l0l

what do yu think???

in multimedia

im in multimedia
we're possed tah be working on this commercial
buh we're doing iht in a car nd
...ihts raining outside hmmm
yuppp sooo im going to tha boys b-ball game tahnight nd ihts gonna be cwazy
this team should be out rivalry team

what an adrenaline rush, nd im not even playin
im supportin'
hmm ihts kool how i can tlk about something else ina blof
rather than a lil love situation or a new poem
or just boredness

i wanna webshow...ima look into that hmm (inspirational)

i lied!!! 112009

so yuhh i know i said i'd blog yesterday;but i lied l0l
i didnt rly have time
energy taken uhp
sooo yuhh
thanksgiving is next week and im not goin home (Alabama)this year :(
buhh mah baybee comin' tahnight yay!! l0l
(mah niece) i havent seen her ina couple months
oooh i had this rly cwazy dream last night like
i was ghettin frikkin choked buhh i didnt see tha person soooo
hmmmm idk that kinda freaked meeh out a lil

everythings same ol' same ol', maybe things'll change , maybe not
iht kinda doesnt even matter anymore ... :I ugh im fckn aggravated

blah
yuhh nd mah friends b-day is tahday were goin tah tha movies 2mrw nd out of town kinda nxt wk...whoop whooo , hopefully i had fun

"i ghet mines" lmfao (insider)

welp welp;

i've resently finished a new poem
ihts untitled buhh what-ev
tahday is poetry day
nd ima work on a lil sum sum for this
spoken word poetry slam
COMING IN JAN

i have mixed feelings right now buhh
ihts ohkaye ...everythings all goody
he'll look back on everything and realize
wha iht really is :I

...blah
update'n 2mrw

dedication[pRT 2]

I just dont know why;
you keep doin this tah meeh;
i switched iht;
you flipped iht;
...all back on meeh;
yes,i put in mah two senses;
just trynna figure ot why;
notice'n shit wont work;
feelin' like fuck iht , why try?!?!
feenin' for your affection;
im speechless when your name comes to mention;
ihts wrenchin';
teeth clenchin;
fucked up;
boy you bitchIN;
fingers tremblin;
say a couple words and my thoughts get ghost like cas-per;
why her;
try her???;
in dispear;
did yu fuck her?!?;
im her
...at least i wanna be...her;
fuck, i was feenin';
you was teasin';
toyin;
you lil boyin'
force(in)my thoughts and innerself into you [AN]
"so what"
ihts petty shit
so damn,im done
i guess i wasnt a fit
too much to grip
i switched iht
you flipped iht
...all back on meeh
now i know
damn, this shit was neva meant tah be

-bRi

lets ghet comfotable ;) [wayne comfortable]

idk usually my weeks are pretty much predicatable
but lately idk
things been change'n
umm well same issues keep poppin' uhp
i guess its true what they say
"if yu dnt fix a problem iht'll just come back nd bite yu later"
nothing goes away nd i cant keep running away from things
i guess i needa "solve iht ,fix iht , nd move on nd forget iht" l0l
idk i like the attention i guess
i dont like getting used to things and then change'n uhp
i feel like i am the nicest person to people so why do meeh wrong
why play with my emotions
why toy with my heart
just for ticks...because i kno deep inside yu care probably more that i do.
i can tell at times yu think about the same things i do.
i can tell when yu ghet mad nd iht makes meeh laugh when yu give meeh that stare when a dude comes uhp trynna ghet at meeh like " NAH SHE MINE"
SOMETIMES..i just wonder

what's on the brain
nd i want yu to pour out yur emotions
nd i ghet nothing
yu wont verbally say
but thats what i want
i go back to that because "THAT" is wha im comfortable

i wanna learn to be comfortable with YOU...and only YOU



i dont typically go faha wyne sng but this ish go hard l0l

im not saying this to shake you up

im just saying this to wake you up

its all good when we making love

all I ask is dont take our love

for granted, its granted

oh wow tahdays been sorta cwazy

so yesterday i was in this pissy attitude when i got home
nd i honestly dnt even know why , iht just seemed like things just
happening and happening and so by time the day was over
i didnt wanna tlk to anyone about anything
BLOCKEd calls nd txt
idk
so i guess iht kinda carried on tah tahday because
i woke thinking about iht again and wheni got to school this mornin'
i was just ready to go off!!!
so i tlkd to a friend of mines nd he was like dnt trip , gave a couple words of wisdom nd i just didnt tlk to anyone so that i wouldnt end uhp "goin off"

maybe tahday will be better
idk im just sick of bullshit* lets be straight uup about things from now on because im really not the one , nd no i dnt think ihts miscommunication , the communication was just fine, you just tolf half truths...and i didnt :l

update'n 102809

sooo
im in 6th pd right now
ON BLOGGER because we aren't doing anything at all in class right now
soooo what's been uhp w/ meeh lately???
mmmm,n0thing[life isnt dull buhh, i guess ihts just nothing i wanna tell]
i made a video that has one of my poems nd a little advice...not just for the females
do yu remember???

Do You Remember
Do you remember when?..

Getting high was swinging on the swing at the park..

When getting stoned was having little rocks thrown at you..

The only thing guys could give you was cooties..

And the only thing they played was football..

You would go to school not caring what you looked like..

And the most painful thing in life was scrapping your knees..

And the only thing that got broken was your toys..

When you wished it was always for a pony..

Race issues were only who could run the fastest..

And war was a card game..

A bitch was a female dog..

Your worst enemies were your brothers and sisters..

And your mum and dad were always right..

The oldest people in the world were your grandparents..

Disney films were your favourite..

And the spice girls were the coolest..

And the biggest treat was getting a bag of lollies..

The only guy in your life was your daddy..

School was to learn..

And you got stickers for doing good work..

Mistakes could be rubbed out..

If someone looked funny, you'd tell them so, then laugh and play with them for the rest of the afternoon...

And the best man that ever lived was Santa..

Your best friend was a teddy bear..

Spending quality time with your mates was playing barbies..

When you couldnt sleep you climbed in bed with mom nd dad...

shut up!! was a very rude word..

"scary" was a 1cm sqr spider that was on your wall...

Your future began with when I grow up I wanna be..

You only made a wish when your blew out the candles on your cake..

And you only cried when you fell over..

And saying goodbye was only until tomorrow...

"Fat" was old men in baggy trackpants, and skinny wasnt an issue...

Ohh!! And kissing was ikky!!

Life was simple and care free..

But all we wanted to do was grow up..

Now we just wanna grow down...

...Memories are the only thing that will stay the same...

by DarkAngel

heels over head:bria banks

my struggle just happnes to be you;
and i dnt know Why the fck i keep goin' back to you;
today is just yesterdays tommarow for meeh;
i need to quit procrastinate'n;
ihts aggravate'n;
you got meeh contemplate'n
...what ima do about you;
i can't keep goin back and forth
so thru...you;
you actin' all cheecky;
boy you bein sneaky;
persnickity;
and swanky boo...flaky
just a month ago you was callin' meeh "baybee"
now you so down tah just uhp nd go?!?
you looked at meeh as future wifey type;
the legacy in your eyes;
you stayed dwn, i guess iht was just for the prize
i was HEELS OVER HEAD for you;
headin' straight off the deep end;
i had to mention;
my thoughts...my feel-ins;
i was wonder'n why i never recieved feedback...no emotion
i think mr. trojan played a role in your acts;
in the thought process,but im worth the wait so no need to stress
i tried to cover all the bases;
ghet in the dome;
you neva gave meeh shit;
nah i wont be that bitch yu sat roun' here toyin' with;
drippin water everywhere in my journying places;
i retraced my sketches;
because what i pictured is no more;
FACT:
feeling at the moment;
DAmn...just torn

092609-DElimma

well i got uhp nd did a lil cleanin this mornin , i didnt finish though
i ghet side tracked easily
sooo im finna go ghet rdy ,then go ghet portia so we can shop for homecomin'
after that i'll prolly ghet sum tah eat nd chill
idk yet ..? buhh yuhh this week has been a sort of cwazy ,
not gonna mentionany name names buh yeah
im all twisted nd confused over what i think is n0thing
...i tol mah friend she bein real milky lately w/ "tha boyfriend" nd shiiiid im doin tha same damn thang
ima just try not tah stress ovah iht , buhh yu can't help some things
tryin' is really all yu can do.
i wrote a really awesome poem a couple days ago nd i got iht fully edited nd complete last night
i think im gonna be BOLD nd read iht [talent show]
yay meeh ,

l0ve&basketball on tha dome
i wonder if brias on tha dome tahday,..we'll see

051509again

umm im at school on blogger ...again
umm tahday is goin by very blah
nothing much tah do
im like the only one in class that finished mah work right nah
nd sooooo :l
yuhh umm mah parents are on trip mode
they've been on trip mode the past like two weeks urg
hmm nd im rambling cause i dnt rly have much to tlk about
OOH i did ghet my license like friday
nd umm thats about iht
OOOOOH nd im writing a new poem for this upcoming talent show
im gonna go beast mode on ehm l0l
nah but rly i want a standin ovation[spell check]

welp im gonna go work on tha poem
ill update tha blogger in a week or so nd fill yah in on how everythign went

thnx babes0-bRi
ps...leave meeh feedback kaye???

welp! 091009

im at school..blogging l0l
umm tahday ihts all muggy nd rainy or what-ev
but besides that ..tahday is goin by kinda Ohkaye
umm...i went to go ghet my license yesterday nd tha computers were down
sooo i was all bummed , buh im going later
:D can't wait
umm then what else is comin uhp???
hmm my car, dances ...blah blah blah
nothing special rly
oooh i gong ice skatin this upcoming wk end :l
iht should be fun :)
i havent went ina while
...well maybe
guys for some reason just dnt like going , "im gonna fall" like so what ihts fun
buhh yeah im finna go to lunch soooo i'll update later if anythign worth talking about happenes

090209

tahday was s very good day
no boy drama...i guess
i found out how errybodyknow mah bis
these dudesjust dnt know...i'll put yu on blast quick fast ndina hurry
with no shame dnt try tah play meeh

but yeah ...school went good,no arguin with anybody at all tahday ...even mom
dd finna do mah hair fah meeh
i ghet mah license next week yay meeh l0l
nd ima ghet mah car in december when mah dad comes home
im excited...everythings pretty much falling into place right now

homecoming uhh,idk i dnt think i wanna go cause last year iht just wasnt worth iht ...my "friend" called meeh last night" tlkn bout iht nd idk i just dnt wanna ghet dissapointed again...prom is amust though,actually no not really only if i go w/ a certain person :D hehe
well hes more like mah best friend, buh idk we're just rly close i guess

idk im just c0nfused at the moment
this weekend i overbooked i have toomuch to do, cross country meet ,volleyball toury,football game ...some0ne gonna have tah help meeh out a lil...:/

081309

today was ver go0d day
i seem like everything just went perfect
i feel like im on top of tha world right nah
like nobody can ruin' tha vibe
i recorded my poems the other day and
ima try tah ghet on here within a couple day
right now idk i just dnt feel like doin iht
well yepp n0thin bad tah say about meh day
2 weeks till school starts ugh ohmygosh
i can wait for that one but yepp leave cmnts i <3 the feedback

mood-aggravated

OHmygosh

i am so aggravated...ppl are sooo frikkin messy
i was in a very g0od mood then "ol guh" txt meeh w/ some more dirt
im like this what makes meeh hate my schoo
news travels so quick , even little shit no one should care about
these boys round here act like females;gossip'n and shit
im like dude ghet a girlfriend
ghet a frikkin life, and stay out my shit
nd they wonder why i try so hard tah keep to myself
and hang with guys more than guhhs, why be so catty nd stupid
...i really can wait for school this year
nd countdown the days till we move to NC
wow[i needa stop lettin ppl ghet tah meeh ]

tha diss

mariah nd eminem are goin' at iht he got her with this one though
i hope her "hubby" nick cannon dnt try tah defend her...that'd be a mees

"When I grow UHp"-Sammie

When I Grow Up - Sammie

this is so true. Sammie made this when he was like 7 hes grown and this world hasn't changed much from when he wrote iht but,
we all wonder what our world going to be 20...30 years from now
idk ihts makes yu think

ohehmghee

Sooo I GUESS IHTS BREAK-UP MAKE-UP SEASON
i was gonna vent about how fun of a day today really was[sarcastic];but that's way too much
little detail...
so im gonna sum up my day
got up at bout 5 this mornin got ready for drivers ed,went there 8-10
came home cleaned,went tah sleep till 2-3 ish

OHKAYE sooo then everyb0dy callin'/txt'n meeh talkin who they broke uhp w/ who they back with
AND im sick of iht ...girls "jumpin stupid" over trifflin ass dudes nd this is very hard for meeh to understand...
WELL its all about the title which i wasn't aware of

whats talkin???
nd when do yu know yur WITH some1???
since we haven't tlkd about iht , i thought i'm free to tlk to whom ever else I want...I ain't booed uhp or nothin';but t0day i was told im completely WRONG
yu suppossed to just KNOW

no no no no no, thats don't fly with meeh
cause thats when the [mis]communication occurs

idk i'm the type of gur that dnt expect guys to trip cause im not going to...UNLESS we have SAID we are together ..dnt wanna date any0ne else blah blah blah then ;therefor i expect that yu tlk to who yo tlk to , nd so do I

THERE ARE RULES THOUGH(cause I ain't havin' none of that friends w/ benefits ,but im trynna pursue yu,Uhuh)

1.yu can't bring yur "friend" around yur main
2. yu dnt tlk about your "friend" to yur main
3.yu be honest about iht all ,or someones feeling WILL ghet hurt
4.dnt bring the new person around family or friends that you've introduced yur main to ,iht just makes them l0ok like they're ghettin played
5Make sure this person is NOT yur mains enemy(or ex friend etc...)
6 If yu decide who yu want in yur life permanently , be honest but not so much blunt ..beat around the bush a little ...say that yu had fun , but yu are COMMITTING yurself to some1 else and yu would never want yur relationship to end off on bad terms( to meeh iht just sounds better than,"you know that gurr i was trynna tlk to well i'm choosin' her over yu")

i know some people may be a little confused , but a main and a BF/GF is totally diff....see if yur a main , yur tha MAIN guhh/dude, but yu ain't that only one
BEIng a GF/BF yu are the ONLY guhh/dude

lets not ghet confused , cause i kno alott guhs who pride themselves cause a dude wanna tell yu that yu tha main...I D0nt wanna be a main , nd if i AM i ain't finna be sittin round here bubbly /happy about iht

I mean seriously who would want tah be one of the guhhs, rather the ONLY guhh???

this past week...

has been awesome!!!
mon-thurs was g0od , i didnt rly ghet mad at any0ne
i didnt let any0nes words or actions ghet to me
i went to tha gym all week , noticed i've lost 4 lbs (yea)
umm then friday i went to tha movies
sat i hungout in my neighborhood with panda them , that was fun(ny)
hehe umm then i went outside later that night again , we didnt do much but i guess since i've been in a g0od mood iht was a change , im happy ...i haven't been able to say that in a while

sun [ditto]

now ihts monday and i have soooo much i should be doin right now
did all my ipc and geometry homework
now i have to finish my speech( [two] 2 speeches 2morro)
along with finishing my spanish...gotta ghet help (spanish isn't my forte )hehe
yupp well im gonna go finish that work ...dnt wanna put any glitches in tha g0od m0od

"so you say that you ready , show meeh that you ready!"

friends?

i want(ed) so much from you???
nah not rly
so this is the end ;
we now are just "friends[?]"
well the 0nly words i have left to say is that
friends are better that nothin'
because i gave to many chances
i let you keep your pride;
i bent backwards to fit w/ tha title of my throne;
i just can't do iht;
all on my own;
so since i didnt/dont have the help
i gave up;
now we'll rly see how bad you wanted iht
everything is behind meeh

just my thoughts on the day , i feel like i give to many chances and i should just cut em loose when "they" start fuckin' up ...another lesson learned i guess
im happy right now , im feeling all relieved dang and when i think about iht ihts better for meeh.im changin' schools , and idk l0ng distance doesnt work w/ people who are unmonogumous(lol if thats a word) ...people who aint titled wifey/hubby...i've never walked away feeling so g0od about myself ,till now! idk im feeling kind of lucky?

memories:(

see memories are reflection of what once was
s0metimes they make you laugh, then your sad because those memories are gone
one thing about memories is that you always have them
unlike a picture ,pictures ghet lost and fade
when you break up w/ someone and you rip their presents and destroy everything that reminds you of them; the one thing you cant rip or break or throw away ...are the memories

memories are in the back of your head always
the g00d and the bad
and im glad of iht
i know that everything happens for a reason
and theres always a lesson learned
but i miss those days
when we played at the parks
and lived to watched cartoons
and got excited over things at the store
when nothing mattered
there were no worries
life was go0d
yet i must admit,i miss those things ...MEMORIES:(

lesson learned:

t0day was a little busy
drama all around
just bria trying to keep the peace among every0ne all tha time
...maybe ihts for a g00d reason
im feelin' like "matchmaka" type shit right now l0l
im feelin' g00d about meeh though
maybe tha relationship situation didn't work out for meeh ,but ihts okay
lesson learned:

i feel like thats way he(no name) handled iht was all wrong;i feel like im tha girl yu can speak up to and theres no since in walkin' round w/ yur head down and not confronting meeh or giving meeh any kind of reasoning ,but everyb0dy aint like me;everyb0dy dont think the way bria thinks all tha time and im starting to understand that. [(girls are grimmy yes i may be one of em')(boys are too, sometimes yu just dnt notice iht)]

"it was like a dof chasin' his tail" we was goin in circles,
you was "just like me" we caused to same hurt to eachother soooo i guess we d0ne w/ the games now
i know what type of dude yu are , nd yu ghet meeh too.

all that aside im still gone keep a close friendship w/ yu cause i feel that if you've been a friend from tha git-go so aint no since in lettin' tha friendship go , i still have l0ve f0r yu.

lesson learned:

032709

jus updatin my blog
nothin' happned t0day
everything "ditto"
prom maybe i'll go
but idk I don'y rly want to , but ...
i guess i'm thinking about other peoples feelings,not my own
umm yeah...
goin to ghet mocha!!!
bye

my day???

today was okay
school wasnt bad, go0d???no not that either
after school track practice for a little bit
then hung out w/ my mom before comin home
now im just txtn and talkin on tha phone
nothin' different, i think my lil guy friend got his feelings hurt
t0day.slipped out some info he didnt need to know about
but i mean it was going to come out eventually
im just l0okin out for ya, nd im tired of bullsh:t and lies
my mom didnt get mad at meeh...t0day
she had a couple jokes i didnt think were things she should've been joke'n about,my social life is not HAHA im lyk yeah.........i see i cant hang with you for along time,you thinkin' we kool now and you can just say whateva tha fxck you feel like now nono booboo
now ma parents in tha crib partyin'
i thought t0day was gone be a chill out friday...guess not
i wannt go outside then again i dnt ...feeling lazy but irritated
meeh and a couple people goin out 2mrw night
-yupp trynna get a couple txtn buddies haha j/k
-2mrw morning!
up at 5:30 core day ugh
be there at 7:45
hmm dreadin that
my lame ass company aint gone win anything
wish i could switch back, but its what-ev
ooh and ima get some choc.MOCHA yahh!! hehe(insider)
so it should be a good day

okay well now i've decided to go outside for a lil bit
i'll update on my day 2mrw night...maybe

to them:

idk im a flirt
i have no shame in what i do
i dont go overboard, i just try to have fun
w/out boys lifes jus boring!
plain and simple
What i dont get is how every dude i flirt with wants to think im on they tip when its not even like that . little do you know that flirting w/ you is just my way of having fun and passing on the time.

SO idk i just wanted to let it be known that
what i post on my blogs dont have to do with you
the songs i have on my profile are just slow jams songs i like
when i say "to him"
don't assume its yu im talking about
under no circumstances do i lie
so if you start to wonder ,ASK!!!
im looking for REAL,but since i keep finding fake
i choose to keep my distance
"think with your head,not your heart"
- a hot commodity
if yu missed out thats 2 bad bay

interested in yu

dont yu hate when a niggah stay on yur tip , then when yu start getting used to everything
he ghet to comfortable and everything stops.
tha games yall play aint cute, nd dnt it need to stop

interested in yu...

i wanna dude who would rather chill at my house instead of hangin w/ the dudes...even if we're just watchin' a movie or talking

i wanna dude that realizes that it takes two people to have a relationship, and i want him to put in the 70 percent while i give in 30 ...so i will know that yu is really feeling me

He wanna be my boyfriend buh he was bestfriend first, telling meeh when im not l00kin like the girl he wants to show off on his arm. He wanna play tha game with meeh sometimes


So your phone broke and yu cant get a new one for a week
SO!!! you betta go find a damn phone tah call meeh on shish!ha buh fareal
i need him to know that i cause for alot of attention, and he doesnt mind giving meeh all the attention i need and much more

he doesnt care about what his friends think,tell meeh i love you when you with your boys ...calling just to say "i was thinking about you"

he come by my house unannounced ,just to see my surprised reaction

would rather go to the park than go to the movies

call my house phone and have a conversation w/ my family before talking to me

understands that we dont have to be around each other 24/7
nd i can share you with other ppl , but when i was a youngin i never learned to share so im not too good with that haha

on tha b-day he aint tryin to shower meeh w/ presents, but does some simple, cute and romantic...hes not a poet but for meeh he tried to write for meeh

he understands that i wanna be tha girl, ima let yu be the man and take charge nd do what you do ...im no hoe , but feel free to claim whats yurs

your a keeper

my mom emailed this to meeh
i ahve many people in my life that help me and guide me so to everyone
even if im not rly you friend i appreciate you , because even people you dont talk to everyday have a place in you heart and its just not the same when their not around anymore


To A KeeperOne day a mother died. And on that clear, cold morning, in the warmth of her bedroom, the daughter was struck withthe pain of learning that sometimes there isn't any more.No more hugs, no more lucky moments to celebrate together, no more phone calls just to chat,No more 'just one minute' .Sometimes, what we care about the most goes away. never to return before we can say good-bye,Say 'I Love You.' So while we have it .. . it's best we love it . .And care for it and fix it when it's broken and take good care of it when it's sick.This is true for marriage ....and friendships And children with bad report cards; And dogs with bad hips;And aging parents and grandparents We keep them because they are worth it,Because we cherish them!Some things we keep -- like a best friend who moved awayor a classmate we grew up with. There are just some things that makeus happy, No matter what. Life is important, and so are the people we know And so, we keep them close! I received this from someone today

who thought I was a 'KEEPER'! Then I sent it to the peopleI think of in the same way !Now it's your turn to send this to

all those people who are 'keepers' in your life!

updating...tick

well as you know
i havent been on here for a while
i guess i havent had much to talk about
lifes been good i guess
right now everything is everything
im not in need of venting right now...just bored
hmm so what been happnin'
nothing much living the "single life"
i guess its fun...well its the smart thing to do
give a dude a couple weeks and he'll do something dumb
but when one messes up , you have another one to get at l0l
that sounds bad but dudes do it al the time
"play like the dudes do so you dnt get played like a bxtch"
-funny how now even though im still living the "single life"im interested in particular dude more than the rest and all of a sudden all my ex's are trying to run back into my life
i guess its cause i am a very g00d girlfriend , when that is my status
BUT ENOUGH ABOUT THE MEN MENS....no BOYS

school is ....?
idk same problems every year
i guess __:/
dang boys is all i like talking about
BOy CRAZY???

i've been writing alot of poetry lately
really good poetry too!
im working on a project to my mom
im writing a variety of poems about the different things around my house
inspiration is lacking , but im getting it done
ONE day im going to have a book
one day im going to have alot of things

lately i've been lost in life
dont know what im doing or where im goin'
just a mix of ideas that need to be thought out and put into action


WORKING ON IT !!!