Don't Statistics make you just wanna give up

"25% of all men are unstable
25% of all men can't be faithful
30% of them don't mean what they say
and 10% of the remainin' 20 is gay"-lyf.jennings

So im sitting here listening to this song "statistics" and with 10% of guys to choose from leaves no options. Of that VERY SMALL percent that's left how many of these guys are goin to fit your standards as far as apperance?


I was told to stop choosing and wait to be chose...and now im thinking what's better,to be chosen to choose???what do yu think???

i know this is two topics,but one topic trickled down into the other one :)

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My Space

Bi-Racial Hair

yu will be see'n ALOT of him on my blogg..hes too fny #RLY TALK

shawt bus shawty!!! lOl i know old buhh ayyyee :)

animosity .cc

"THTS ALRIGHT IMA GET ME A WHITE MAN!!!!"

dnt take what i say to the dome..its not that serious!!!

we have realized tht when black ppl who usually stick to their own race flip when a "nigga" make em mad
like a black girl goes off on her black significant other
she quick to say "thts alright ima go get me a white dude CAUSE YALL "NIGGAS" BE TRIPPIN"

visa versa
dude: "YOU KNOW WHAT THATS WHY I DNT MESS YALL HOSTILE FEMALES"

black women are considered "angry creatures" buh i wouldnt say we born with anger i would say us black females aint finna take no crap
nd if we mad bout some we gone let yu know about it!!

take if for what it is..

SN:alotta ppl think i bias in my situations IM SORRY IM ME c:

this video just made meeh cr..hmmmmm why?? :/

sittin in 6th pd

im sittin in 6th period right now ..nd we pretty much do nothing in here so ima blogg
i only have like 15v min left so this gonna be a quick one

so question of the week:
WHY DO WE ALWAYS WANT WHAT WE CAN'T HAVE???

who knows, buh ihts as if we are always attracted to things that we arent supposed to have.
when your a baby you wanna play with the HOT stove and markers because your told "DONT TOUCH IT"
when your older you seek a higher extent of the un-tochables
like taking someone boyfrand or staying out later then curfew just beacuse your told ihts the wrong thing to do

so why do we do this??
i was gonna tell you the stats buh this isnt a essay im writing this because this question has been on tha domw allllll week (any comments ,i'd love to know what YOU think) :p

"im all contradicting mahself"

my wk/end so far
friday(yesterday) i was off work nd i wanted to HANG OUT buhh dudes was trippin
i came home at 8 to get rdy to go out
nd 2 hours later i jst started trippin like we in tha car nd i was jst actin like not myself buhh iht was kinda a good thing like iht was as if i were brake'n out me shell nd releasing..

IDk
buhh iht felt good to be so carefree for a night
i felt relaxed



btw im only bloggin right now because i have to make uhp hours nd im bored as shit in here..nd to keep myself from falling asleep i thought maybe this would help

ohkaye anyways

yeahh then i woke uhp this mornin at about 6 to get rdy to come here(sat school)
then after this i have to go home nd get rdy for work until 10..this rly sux ass
buhh m sure i wont be thinkin bout allat when i get tht pay check aha
tahnight idk what im doin..maybe i'llhang out witha different friend tht doesnt wanna act a ass lOl lemme stop (im all contradicting mahself)

"the web ruined our relationship" who can relate?

lOl i've realized tht ppl in relationships should maybe take a little "break" from the internet cites.. SUCH AS myspace,twitter,facebook..formspring ...etc

yuhh iht does nothing buhh ruin iht..if yur single ihts ohkaye but learning from other peoples experiences i stay away from them when im "commited"

yu post the smallest thing nd yu got yur signifaicant other questioning yu like crazy over a pic of yu on facebook(on girls night) or a Trending topic on twitter

so heres the advice
if yu wanna keep yur relationship know how to act on tha pc....or delete yur account

vehemented :/

idk im rly annoyed right now because like i take pride in my friends and all the people i love in my life...nd when i dont get the same amount of love bck as im give'n i feel like im "doin too much" nd if yu dnt care about yurself then wtf am i care'n bout yu?!?!

SMH-oneof my new found pet peeves have to be when ppl "regret" something thaye do then they got bck nd do tha exact same thing tht had yu regret'n to begin with.
i come off as trynna be the "MOTHER" buhh i guess thtas jst meeh.I HAVE to wotty bout my friends. I HAVE to stand uho for my family and I HAVE to care about the ppl i love.

i jst feel like now im jst gonna stop care'n bout a couple ppl..ima stop bein a shoulder to cry on and instead of baby'n yui for the time being ima let yu kno yur bein stoopid and when yu cry im gone cause i cnt do this shit nomore

Call iht wht ya want :/ FYF

wow i haven't bogged ina real long minute

sooo whats been uhp since i last blogged..hmm
ihts been since january i think soo

woah
Current mood: contemplative
i realize i've really been trippin lately...i just get so ahead of myself'
all this wishful thinkin' got meeh contemplate'n emotions
and speakin' of emotions, why do i have em?!?!!
--no one has givin meeh any reason to catch feelings,yet im in this circumstance
paha at romance
im driftin,in this daze
nd ihts funny because IM THE ONE whos always tlkn bout rules and games
yet i never win,i lose cause i givee uhp on playin

so either i find someone who dont wanna play games...or i step my game uhp
buhh wouldnt be soo much easier if we was jst straight uhp,not use'n rules or game tactics??? what-if

the end of my day

well i wen tto trak practice...iht was freezing outside,then i got a ride home 4rm ..
"a friend" i guess hes a friend
soo tell meeh why i left mah phone in hyis car and there were things that i kind didnt wnt him to see so later that night he calls meeh from my cell to let meeh know he has iht ...nd ever since i've jst been wondering what his reactions are

i wanna explain myself buhh then again iht like NO! who are yu tah meeh anymore
idk.hmmmm......
so nowim on formspring adn twitte quite interesting aha

right side vs left side

sooo im in psychology right now, annndd idk i think todays gonna be pretty good day :)
so far ihts like great !!!
i needa go to tha office though nd sign up for my classes because i missed first pd today..
this good day is surprising because
1.i like woke up late
2.missed class
3.forgot my cd for class
nd yett im not mad
maybe i woke up on the "RIGHT" side of the bed today
the left side always seems to creep up onmy moods :/
but not today :)

dedicated to my used tah be

mayyynee my lil guy friend and I were have'n this bomb ass convo last night and like i tol hi m about my poetry thing and he thought that shi t was soooo fckn sexy so i thought about givin' uhp but you've motivated me to keep iht pushin' so shoutouts tah yu *booboo

ohkaye now tht allat is done i've been meaning to tlk to this one particular one...he seems to believe in the games;
he misbeahves only because he knows that love flows and no matter what , ima take his blows;
but that is what ...he BELIEVES;
i stay because right now it benefits meeh;
the thought of yu thinkin yu got me on a leesh , thinkin yu got holds on meeh;
HA fny shit , i plee
pleed your case, fck what yu thank;
this happnes to be one of many of yur many mistakes;
but its okay ;
thats what i want you to believe;
i decieve;
because of that is which yu think i dnt need;
i greed;
sometimes i pity yu;
yep i eat my ice cream, and i got a lil slice of cake too;
oh so now yu mad ha now yu threw?!? i got want i want
no longer do i NEed yu;
so greed boo;
continue to do what yu do;
naw dnt stop on account of me;
no matter how much yu say yu canged , im threw playin' wit yu'
my boy toy;
used tah bring meh joy;
i got bored w/ yur games;
so i let yu know we should go our seperate ways;
yeah yu had had me at the begining;
but the begin had a end;
my heart used tah be flammin red w/ passion out of this world;
yu sucked out all tha passion out and now ihts pump cold blue blood
solid like ice cubes;
a couples holes in it;
tha breeze i feel when the wind blows;
cause yu love them hoes;
remember i cling to these ice cubes
infused;
so its my idea to dispose of this game,decompse yur inside fame
new invented shit that cant be fckd with;
fck what yu said;
i loose no sleep when i rest my head;
yu were clueless, did what yu did;
thought i was stupid;
made yu think i was sittin at home ...all alone
fck that ,this new nigga worships tha ground i wlk on ;
should've been the queen on yur thrown;
but yu went out of our picture;
now for me yu wanna ditch her;
im trying to hlp you out a little sir.
if me is reason;
you again want to commit treason;
waste of time , man change yur plan;
naw little ass boy, like a child yu were wrapped up in my words;
to me you sittin at 2ft 2
laughin my ass off at this so called "pain" yu wanna act like I PUT YU THROUGH
now that everything is all said and done;
yu wanna pretend the repromend;
like yu care bout me and him;
yu jst mad im done with yur ass;
dnt be mad baby boy;
yu can't get thru , this shield i have up is an unbreakable glass
so get glad :)
like trina i cant believe how i long i put up w/ yur dusty ass

one my fav poets-ken bright :)

makes yu think...hmmm

innocence

COMING SOON!!!!
this week type soon
thnx guys for all yur feedback and support

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the end:

you told me you're not the same,but you've yet to change the game;
all of a sudden your love seemed as if it started to fade;
you began expressing your love through pain;
all i could do was cry river flows or rain;
"sorry"
"my bad"
"i promise it wont happen again"
i believe to my [un]suprise
nothing has changed;

i was bleeding love;
i kissed my bruises instead of your lips;
somehow i can't put two and two together;
and to think that i could coerce you into loving me;
protect me.not hurt me;
embrace me. not degrade me;
the whole relationship hand-i-CAPPED..me;
now unable to use my heart,wondering if i'll evr love again;
scared of guys that let the 'L-WORD" slip out or mention;
you put me in detention;
i was temporarily DETAINED;
you held custody of my heart;
the only thing free was my emotions, that even i COULD NOT control;
retention kept us together;
then it started to wither;
deranged;
you'd leave and I was only lying to myself say that i DID NOT want you back;
i then tricked myself into believing that the bruises on ym body were carbon to the X's and O's that "they" get;
"they " became abnormal to me;
i secluded myself from mankind
everyone;
including my family;
they acted as if the day ....I...Met ..You was such a tragedy;
i was deeply in your love spell and they couldn't be happy ...for me;
i let YOU ghet the best Of me;
took me some years , but i recieved again my sanity;
never again will i trace bloody paths to find love, yet again
THE END
end of my hurt;
end of my loved bruises
end of what I THOUGHT was a l0ove between us two
the...END

-by bria banks(no copywrite'n) this is alrdy keeps save

haha to you frauds

v-day sucks aha

welp V-day is coming up nd im dreading iht
like every year some pisses meeh off on that day
like one year i brokeuhp w/ this dude because i realized i wasnt feelin' ehm as much as he was feelin' meeh nd i didnt want to take his valentines day gift

AND because i was still like "i lust" w/ mah ex
sooo i break up w/ dude and when i went tah school tha next day
mah ex had brought his new girl this big ass fckn teddy bear
nd mah dumb ass was jst sittin there like wtf aha( ihts fny now m but then i was cryi non tha inside)

then another yr meeh nd mah friends jst idnt have boyfriends so we went downtown , nd ohmahgosh loike iht was luvy dovey bull like everywha...thaye had like the lil horse and carigges ride'n round

everyone holdin hand and make'n out UUUUGGGHHHH :/
iht was horrible

then another yr
the year i actually had a valentine , ig ot stuck at home babysitting
instead of goin out ...damn myah mother and her offer'n meeh to her friends
"i should've let er know i had plans " but i didnt so what-ev

soooo whats in for this yr, idk but i know i cant be good :/ very worried

OHH snaps!!!

tahday couldnt ghet any better...
found mah license!!!
(damn tha wind)
ate mah fav food
finna go fill out this job application in about an hour
idk

ihts this good vibe thing goin' on tahday
like no1 can ruin iht
...maybe i'll make a new blog video later
im lookin pwetty cute tahday :) lOl
ohkaye i lie i look cwute jst about everyday
im confident not cocky baybee aha

daddys home :)

well this title is goes fro two things

im love'n that new song "Hey Daddy"(daddys home)
mah baybee plies features in iht ;) aha
ihts like two perfect dudes ina song
so this gone be mah fav song for a while...

AND my daddys ,mah reall daddys comin home tahnight
hes been in over seas of a couple months and so hes comin home tah visit
THEREFOR im ghettin mah car when he ghets here !!!!!!
YAY MEEH life couldnt be better right nah

b-was lie two weeks ago
nd for another reason i thought this month would be sooo hard fah meeh buh ihts not!!!

welp im finna go ghet rdy tah go out

holla atcha lata guys :)

thnx for checkin' out mah blogger

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sooo this week...

UHMMMM. i haven't done much this week
exams all week
besides that,no drama at all
movie night 2mrw night :)
hope i have "fun"
i been sayin' i need tah do that
lets agree to follow thru w/ mah "new years resoulution"

"i gotta keep iht movin'they stuck on some stooooopid" aha
idk u jst had tah say that

im love'n that quote :/

COMING SOON TO BLOGGER: "i hate the way guys..."

yess jocker :) i thought that since i stay bloggin and make'n videos about how much dudes piss meeh off and what i can't stand i thought that maybe i should write about the things yall do that make meeh happy :) lOl sooo here iht goes

I LOVE THE WAY:

**i love the way i feel when yu holdin meeh; just protected ...i just wanna scream "NEVA LET MEEH GO"

** i love the way yu wanna act all nonchalant like yu dnt care , but meeh nd yu both know yu adore tha shit outta meeh...yu cnt hide iht boo"

** i love the way yu try tah go out of yur way tah make meeh laugh...nd no matta how lame tha joke was , that shit be funny(ol' cute ass aha)

** i love tha way yu look at meeh when i first step in yur ride,like "damn baybee, whats uhp tahnight"

** i love the way yu turn that wayne off , cause yu kno i dnt fcx wit that shit...aha nd then we compromise nd yu turn iht off afta i flirt a lil bit

** i love the way we joke around , im lame, im wierd , ima loser, but im yours

** i love the way yu know sooo much about meeh , nd out of the blue yu'll let meeh know
like "ayy bay i ordered yur food nd i got yu a diet coke" cause yu know what i like ...and iht aint even been that long ...how yu know that?!?!

** i love the way yu stay on tha phone w/ meeh for hours ...even when yur tired ,we'll go tah sleep on tha phone before yu hang that shit uhp

** i love the way we awkwardly stare at each other, nd ihts as if we speakin without words...no one but us knows what we're saying(iht a us conversation)

** i love the way we friends before anything , nd if we dnt wanna love we can still chillax

**i love the way we play fight nd wrestle nd how i beat yo ass in Wii nd how fny iht is when yu be trynna make meeh believe i beat yu in basketball ...i know all them shots was free

**i love the way yu be lookin at dudes that be trynna holla at meeh [then yu come grab meeh uhp like yu claim'n iht]

**i love that goofy smile yu givee meeh when i say "certain things nd i tlk about (THAT) stuff..."

**i love the fact that only you and I could ghet that last one aha

**i love the way yu ain't scared to show yur emotions...yo boys be like "dag she got yu hooke" yu shake yur head because what can yu say, ihts ohkaye im hooked too

**i love the way yu watch L0ve&basketball ...because i love that movie , nd yu love'n meeh :-)

** i love the fact that yu gone read this blogg , nd sometime in tha future when i forget i even wrote iht yu gone bee like "ayy when yu was tlkn bout tha music in tha car ...yu was tlkn bout meeh huh???"

"yess i was :) " is what im gonna say back

i love everything about yu , but i especially love that we can be friends after ....ALL THAT :/

fuck bitch nigg[a.s]

fuck:
fuck bitches that try tah come inbetween mah love thang

fuck these depressing songs,that remind meeh of yu

fuck all this shit i tlk;yu know ima always have love fah yu

fuck that date iht no longer means shit

fuck quit txtn meeh:hop off mah tip

fuck silly dudes who scared tah commit

fuck hoes that only wanna be cool when ihts convientant fah them(fake bitch)

fuck bein quiet nd bit,n mah toung,lets be honest

fuck goin tah a party every weekend.can we chil at tha crib?!?

fuck mah hair when iht dnt wanna "act right"

fuck,all yall do is hit uhp ol' dude house tah mix a lil some w/ yah sprite

fuck all yall who dnt like what i have tah say

fuck love.cause that quote say "everything happnes for a reason "anyway

fuck this,im done saved for anotha day






Bitch:
Bitch stfu, yu always tlkn shit

BItch nigga, i know yu was tremblin,thats why yu got dropped quick

Bitches is who i dont ghet and can't seem tah ghet along with

Bitch, tha definitionof a female dog ...some you got on a leesh and yu own tha bitch

Bitch i own yu!!! , got yu caught uhp , yu mad HA , i win ...again



Niggas:
"Niggas be on stoopid shit,gotta keep iht movin' "

nigga; i dnt usually say buh latley ihts been spittin out mah mouth like cwayzayy lOl

Niggas, the word hurts some and to some ihts a movement

NIggas is what they show in reality tv , tah make US lookin fckn silly

Niggas embarrasin all on fckn Maury...ihts crazy wtf yo baybee got no daddy

NIgg[ers] is what they call us...WHEN WE AINT AROUND

NIgga , cause yu know ...if we heard SOME SHIT WOULD GO DWN

Nigg,NIgg[er]. nigg[a] i will always be called that by some

NIGGA idgaf, cause that shows yur ignorance hun

dayme

i fckn loose everything mayne,daggg
i fckn lost mah license nd nah i can't ghet home
idk wtf ima do
this a preety fckd uhp b-day fahreal ugh!!!

:( another lesson learned....i guess

tahday....yesterday...everyday???idk

well tahday is rly 2mrw because iht after 12...sooo yuhh i guess yesterday??? well everyday idk im tlkn about whatever i feel like.
SO ima start off backwards nd say HAPPY b-DAY MeeH!!! since ihts after 12 , so teq ihts mah b-day...
hmm i dont know whats in store fah tahday buhh ima do meeh regardless...(car maybe???)

ohkaye now YESTERDAY , i had a convo w/ a few guy friends ( not a hoe , just ghettin mines ) lmao
nd one of ehm is a ex that i still "kick iht w/" every nah nd then nd tha other is jst a dude i used tah tlk to ...so they BOTH seem to think casual sexx aint a biggie, i have hormones so im not like EEWwww no , buh ima female nd we think way diff . guys wanna "SCORE" nd i dnt wanna be like milk or just another notch in yur belt...im lookin for something real

iht'd be ohkaye IF we had a relationship , buh we dnt
iht'd be ohkaye IF we were one the same level about relationships
iht'd be ohkaye IF yu wasn't fckn with other females

BUT enough IF's because yu are, nd ima smart little lady , sooo just wait for the relationship tah happen??? hmmm :/
yeah yu can't be friends w/ benefits nd be catchin feelins

OhkAye EVERYDAY
everyday this week has been hella awesome
besides meeh ghettin locked out mah house in tha freezing cold two nights ago
damn i was pissed

yuhh school though, school this week been pretty damn good
i like tha lil blunt meeh who ain't holdin back ...iht allows meeh to be honest nd not hold things in as much ,im sayin' exatly whats on tha dome welp

New meeh ...i guess :/

haayyyeeee :)

heybri...hey